Priyanka Chopra is opening up about a tough time in her past.
The actress, who spoke about her life in upcoming memoir Unfinished out on February 9, detailed her experience of being Indian while attending an American high school as a teenager.
She reveals in the book that she left the United States and returned to India for school because of the bullying.
“I took it very personally. Deep inside, it starts gnawing at you,” she told People.
“I went into a shell. I was like, ‘Don’t look at me. I just want to be invisible.’ My confidence was stripped. I’ve always considered myself a confident person, but I was very unsure of where I stood, of who I was,” she went on to say.
She explained in the book that girls in school would say things like “Brownie, go back to your country!” and “Go back on the elephant you came on” as she walked down the hall. She said she even reached out to a guidance counselor for help, but it didn’t work.
“I don’t even blame the city, honestly. I just think it was girls who, at that age, just want to say something that’ll hurt. Now, at the other side of 35, I can say that it probably comes from a place of them being insecure. But at that time, I took it very personally,” she revealed.
She said she “broke up with America” at that point, and decided to go home.
“I was so blessed that when I went back to India, I was surrounded by so much love and admiration for who I was. Going back to India healed me after that experience in high school.”
“Insecurity becomes small as soon as you talk about it with someone you trust: A therapist, a counselor. I feel like a lot of people spend their time when they’re feeling dark [in isolation]. That’s the worst thing to do, is to feel sad alone. Sadness is very seductive. It sucks you in and you want to just wallow in it because it feels comfortable and warm — and light is harsh sometimes. [But] you have to look at it, you squint. [The light is] a lot, but it gives you life. It gives you joy. We have the choice, most of the time, to step out of the darkness ourselves. The best way I’ve found of doing it is talking to people who care,” she went on to say.